tried on

i tried so hard

to sink into this soul

downward and backward

as if it were a bowl

i breathed and blew

bellowed like a flue

and summoned all i knew

i sulked and sunk

i hulked and dunked

contemplated like a monk

i tried so wide

to fill up this space

to care and to tend

and do it all with grace

i read and i bled

i earlied to bed

and still it all filled

not my heart

but my head

i tried so much

to get it in gear

to push in the clutch

then let the world steer

i exhausted the power

to try as i might

and in the last hour

i released

from the fight